Wah.. Long time never post bloggy.. I aint got the time lately.. Many things are making me realize about life and death.. and a little bit of both too.. Haha.. First.. Lets flash back.. Actually i didnt wanna post a blog now, because im not allowed to online and i got a biggy exam coming up but since my mom and dad are not home, hehe.. What the heck.. Muahahaha.. Actually, changes right now got me thinking.. Like my parents being away from home a lot, Having difficulty moving around and the mellow trend going around my group.. Is this a sign of mature?? I hope not.. I still wanna be a kid! I feel like a 10 year old stuck in a 14year olds body.. Is this rite?? I dont like this somehow.. Whatever i do is wrong, and i'm not suppose to do it my way.. I just gotta follow rules.. Which i normally don't, but i must.. But i should resist.. Man.. I can't make up my mind again... Also, i have this weird feeling that i cant seem to avoid.. I wanna study for my exams, get good grades and have my two months holiday peacefully and continue life.. Sadly, i dont feel like revising which is a bad sign.. I gotta get good grades in my exams because i really wanna make my dad happy.. he's very proud with the rest of his children, so i wanna shine out the best in me too.. He had his birthday recently, and all i can offer is a stupid card i made.. I wanna prove that i am capable of succeeding like the rest of my siblings and make him happy.. Its like, i live to make my parents happy or let me just suffer.. I need this a lot and i know i have God by my side to guide me.. Although i dont talk about God alot, but i really respect Him and i know he will be there for me if I have problems.. Dont get me wrong people.. I also thought lately about people changing.. I tot i heard a friend say that everything changes including people.. I dont like this change too.. Why cant we all be ourselves the rest of our lives? Is it so hard? I dont like people changing because i like them the way they are.. I was a very shy person but now, i cane out of my comfort zone because of those people but now, the change is kinda involving me with the past.. Its really frustrating.. I need someone to talk to, but each time i wanna speak, i cant seem to say the right words... I feel really sorry for this.. Well i let my feelings out oredi.. I feel so happy now.. Hehe.. See you soon..

     Hie.. Posting another blog cuz i feel disturbed with something.. I ask someone for help but, no thank to that person, coz they mad me feel worse.. Haha.. She said im dead.. Haha.. So read.. Coz u never noe whether this is gonna happen to you in the future..
    In school, i exchanged name tags with ppl.. We did it for fun, and we did it for quite some time.. But.. Someone caught us.. and its a bad thing.. My eng tr caught us with different names.. I was Step, the geek was emerald, n emerald was me.. Hehe.. U'll get confused with this somehow.. Then, the tr caught emery using someone else's name.. and caught me a few minutes later using someone else's name.. Owh.. She reached boiling point.. Then she 'kinda' got angry and scolded us.. Then she went down finding step.. She scolded step.. Meanwhile, we quickly changed our name tags back, b4 she returned.. Sadly, she caught emery and emerald cuz they were wearing it and took their name tags.. She took step's too.. She dint take mine.. Cuz i was hiding it.. Haha.. I tot she juz rampas it.. But a few minutes later i realised that she's the tr in charge that week.. Im DEAD.. She's gonna announce it in assembly on Monday.. I wasnt really convinced that she was gonna do it... But then i found out she looked for our class tr too.. She was so angry.. But I dint get scolded.. Hehe.. I noe im gonna get it on Monday.. So.. I gotta plan my steps.. Haha.. jkjk
     So.. Now im getting all scared, but when i'm old, im gonna look back on this day and laugh at it.. Haha.. But 4 now, im not actually laughing.. Im doing the opposite.. Wish me gud luck.. So i'll only get it from 1 tr.. Hehe..

     Today is such a happy day.. haha.. i had loads of fun eventhough i was alone most of the time.. Hehe.. Today, supposed to go for a project meeting with the geeks and fools but i didn't go.. Little baby had a party at KFC.. So i went.. For the sake of fun.. Haha.. I was a widdle sad though.. Coz there wasn't no clown.. Haha.. I love clowns.. But there was Chicky.. I think he was their mascot or something.. He suxx though..

     The chicky incident was funny.. When the kids were eating, dat huge thing came out of the.. not playground.. KITCHEN!! Haha.. But the kids loved it.. They keep pulling his tail and his.. waddaya call dat.. BLOUSE.. hehe.. They wanna see the loser within.. So bad owh me.. I mean the "good person" within.. Haha.. Then, i was curious whether it was a man or woman or.. erh.. U noe.. Hehe.. Then i asked Siti to ask it.. It wasn't helping though.. She kept on going near it and whispering "R u a man??" then wud run away giggling.. Fools.. But then we asked the staff who it was.. and it was a man.. not a man.. maybe a kid.. no.. a teen.. Hehe.. But when we asked it it's gender, it just kept on dancing.. Which was kinda weird.. Wahhahaha..

     I was the cameraman.. No.. camera-woman.. Watever.. Hehe.. I took pics so not many of my pics were there.. But i prefer it to be that way.. Hehe.. When the kids played games, dat was fun too.. Haha.. Most of them knew how 2 play.. But wat made me laugh was the ones that didn't.. They played musical chairs.. Some followed the rules but some ran around in circles even when the music stoped.. Haha.. Then they played pass the bottle or something.. and pass the balloon.. Hehe.. Cute kids..

     When it was over,we went to the mall.. Thank god i remembered that i lost my guitar pic.. So i bought a new pretty white one.. Vr cute.. Hehe.. Then i bought a nice gold polish.. but the results didnt please me so much.. But wat the heck.. it only costs two bucks.. So no big deal..

     Looking forward to watch I Do.. I never watched it cuz i usually go 2 church dat time.. Its ways creative people propose.. Kinda interesting if u like romance.. Hehe.. So.. i'll give it a try.. I dont really like romance.. I love romantic comedies.. So.. that could be in the same category.. Haha..

     Tired and sad.. Coz 2morrow there's sunday schooll.. I dont hate sunday schooll.. i juz dont like it.. U'll understand.. Hrm..
    

     I'm sure most people don't believe in bad luck.. I didnt too, last time.. But then, now.. I dun think i can explain bout the luck im going through.. On day 1.. It was Science and Maths Week.. After recess, me and the two idiots went to the hall for activities.. We came late so we rushed.. We dint wanna be in front cuz we're juz too tall.. But we had too.. Then Emery was next to someone and i was next to Stephenerd.. Emery dint realize until she did.. Then she asked me to change with her but i dint want too.. Unfortunately, the teacher caught us and punished us for making noise.. Hell.. She told us to stand on the stage.. Emery was like 'Do we look like models??' hehe..But she didnt scold us or do any crap to us.. She juz told us to clean the staff room..
     Day 2.. This involved only me.. I was in class with Patz and i was rather bored, sleeping and distracted.. I wasn't always like this but God knows whats happening.. Then the tr asked me a junior question.. It was like a year ago.. How am i suppose to remember that?!?! I couldn't answer then she gave me choices.. A,B, C.. Still i dint noe the answer.. But ppl kept whispering the answer so i finally knew.. I looked like an idiot..
     Day 3, Maths.. I was a little lucky.. The tr suddenly asked for my book .. I was a little scared coz i tot i dint finish.. When i opened the book, I did finish.. Halleluia.. But there was 1 ques left.. She dint bother.. Emery and Patz were asked 4 their buk too.. I told them it'sbad luck week but no.. No 1 believed..
     Day 4, I got my literature book back.. I was hoping to see the comment the tr wrote for my essay.. I flipped through the pages..But  my essay wasnt there!! I forgot to stick it in my book.. I wrote it on a  paper and  i put in a lot of effort on that story.. But t was in my file.. On my book the tr wrote 'Where's the essay??-Finish it!!..' I did!! I juz didnt stick it..
     Day 5.. It was worst!! Patz, me, Em, got punished.. Washed the toilet.. Hahaha..